I am a beloved lover of God. I have heard God speak this into my soul. This is a new revelation even though it is something I have intellectually known for a decade. We are all called to be lovers of God and indeed much of my life has been strained to try and please God. I am now walking into a new place where I feel the Spirit of God calling me to do less and do more by trusting Him. I am beginning to prioritize my relationship with God in my heart and life. I am feeling that God is going to open up doors for me in heaven and on earth and that by my walking by faith and not by sight there will be real opportunities for me to see heaven come to earth.
It is beginning even now. I just spend about 3 hours ministering so someone unexpectedly by first hearing their life's story and not judging them but seeking to hear them out. I was praying the whole time and just followed God's directions. He said to say something and when to say it so I said it so I obeyed. I also waited on God to show me when to wrap up the conversation. He is really good at leading me if I will but ask and listen.
I have begun to recognize that my identity is not rooted in self-knowledge but in the knowledge of God, meaning that who I am is not what matters but who He is in relation to Me. What I am is the beloved of God. I am the chosen of God, one of many people so named. I also am seeing more that I put so much effort into trying to please people when God is pleased with faith. I will have the stability I have been needing for so long when I finally rest in Him.
Rest is a weapon of war. When Jesus sat down there was victory, for God said, "Sit at my right hand and I will make your enemies a footstool beneath your feet." When He sat down all his enemies were being lined up to one day bow the knee to the King of Kings. When I relax and trust God and have no expectations because I trust Him to take care of the results without worrying about me, there is a peace that surpasses understanding, and a love that is overflowing. I have too long worked independently of God trying to make a name for myself when the name I should be making is for God. I should be sanctifying the name of God on earth as it is in heaven.
While I have begun to improve on this I also feel clear leading of how to do things and it gives peace. There is far less trepidation. I don't have to fret about whether or not I have messed things up or done this or that right if I have obeyed God. I can relax in the knowledge of God. There is so much peace in that I can relax forever. Also, because I have that peace inside of me I can wonder about God rather than wondering about me. God makes me wonder in awe and not fret. Praise God!
Lastly, God deserves the glory and will not give His glory to another, so when I serve Him He can trust me. He won't trust me with millions of people if I take the glory. He won't give me something that I will steal from Him in the long run. It would be bad for everyone involved as they would worship me rather than God. God's eyes run to and fro throughout the earth to look for a heart who is fully for Him.
Thanks for reading my first blog,
Daniel
